I have given up on trying to understand guys! I have accepted that I will be alone for the rest of my life!

I just don't get how he could say I miss you and lets plan to meet up and then out of the other side of his mouth say I just don't feel like company when the time comes. So I say to you my dear 3rd Grade- forget it. I give up trying to figure out what you want. Especially when you don't know. I am leaving you alone to find yourself. When you do, I may be around, I may not. Being friends with you is too hard right now. Starved crushes die and I hope this one won't be a slow death. While I am upset with you, I don't wish you ill. I just hope that you find what you are looking for. In time, I hope we really can be good friends because no matter what I will miss you.